even if saving you sends me to heaven.

Thursday, January 1, 2009

HAPPY NEW YEAR FOLKS!
ITS 2009 !!

it's been a tough 08 for me, a year of setbacks and memorable experiences of secondaery three !
haha thank you for the people i loved for adding the extra special gloss in my past year, omg thank you guys so much , you guys really mattered. (:

anyway, its the best countdown yet for me i think.
perhaps the past few countdowns i was still quite young and did not really care and go all out for it haha, forgive me lah!
so its a 16th year for me !
time and again, repeat to myself to be more DONG SHI.
haha and be more down-to-earth in whatever i do, hopefully.
most importantly, accomplish my upcoming NEW YEAR RESOLUTIONS.
oh god, must be thinking how stupid i may sound again.
haha dont care, must still read k !
cos they do mean alot to me .

#1- to be able to get tgt with ****** i hope?
#2-maximum 10 points for my o's ! (im not gunning for top jcs i guess)
#3-to have fatass#2 and my good friends and family with me always(heh, greedy-me-pig.)
#4-join SAJC(perhaps) and most importantly for wish no.4 is to JOIN SOCCER CCA.
#5-to be able to be more sensible and filial (:

and many more but too lazy to post down here.
as it goes, its for me to know and for you to find out (:

moving on, my dedication part!!
i know SHE must be jovious to see this hahaha wth.
here it goes!

wenkai - thank you my best bud. could still remember how we were total strangers during 1st day of sec 1 when we were drafted into the same class. i think we all were quite reserved and shy ( IN FACT YOU ARE NOT ANYWAY) haha then dint notice you and weikun bla bla cos you all were sitting at the back then i was at the front. then after one month or two then i got to know more people . then aw then you , xusong , kenneth, fang qi etc. actually we got close only in sec 2 i think, but nvm i still want to thank you for being my friend, and im fortunate to have you around. THANK YOU FOR HELPING ME TELL MY MUM YOU WERE WITH ME WHEN IN FACT ME YOU, LITING AND JASLYN WERE AT KTV WHEN MY MUM CALLED ME AT 2+AM AND YOU WERE SO READY TO LEAVE WITH ME FOR HOME IN A CAB AND PAY FOR CAB FEES AS YOU TOLD THE AHLIANS YOU CANNOT BE SO PANGSEH HAHA.

weikun- yo wassup small dick kun.hahaha. '' eh , cb fuck.'' HAHA YOUR FAV LINE. good friend man ! we've been close friends since sec 1 till now and i could still remember how short you were in sec 1 and we all laughed at you ! HAHA then you looked so innocent and guai and you dont even know what is ''fuck'' and ''dick'' in sec one and still ask me and wenkai what is that HAHA OMG. then sec 2 we got closer and played soccer after school and go woodlands play xbox tgt HAHAHA. so lame lor, still went to my house to borrow clothes cos the COURTS people dont allow school uniforms. then thank you now, for being a close pal to me and we play dota, go out, shop and do things almost tgt. THANK YOU.

kenneth-haha yo milkman!sorry for always being so rude to you and making fun cos you are plump hahaha but you are actl a nice guy indeed. (: i still rmb you were my best sec1 orientation mate and you and i would go around with our nike bottles and spray people with water HAHA SO RETARDED. then we will keep scold ruoyang about him being zhong guo ren. HAHA . thank you for telling me im a good friend to you and we do hang out quite often tgt. (:

FATTY ASS- hahaha . best man you. the only person that can make me ku xiao bu de. hahaha your hysterical laughters, extreme hyperness, ZOMG MOMENTS and malu moments , when you scream over the phone and make me want to die, and your heart-to-heart encourages and consolations for me everytime i needed you, made me feel so blessed with you around. DONT LAUGH, BUT I HAD THOUGHT WHETHER YOU WERE THE ANGEL SENT TO BE WITH ME K !! then we could lame over stuffs like da nai da, ni de pi gu chao ji wu di da, ni zhe yang fei, MOOB LAI MOOB QU. HAHHA. then comparing whose san lun che bigger and all sorts of funny little things.MING HUA !!!!!!! (: haha though there had been times i were sad, cos of personal stuff, you wont dao my unreasonable sms and will still reply even in the most most most awkward situations and try to make me feel better. thank you alot alot alot, not even a million words can express my feelings man ! hahaha. thank you for making me a whole lot better person. maybe thats how i had feelings for you? haha.
BUT REMEMBER NOT TO CALL ME AT 3AM IN THE MORNING. EVEN IF I DONT MIND.HAHA KIDDING.ASS LUH.

k thats all.
there's more, but you know what i feel for you all guys.
thats enough, huh?

at 2:11 AM

Monday, December 29, 2008

when friendship starts.

ha ha.
ITS 3 DAYS MORE TO THE NEW YEAR !!!!
im so not into the new year mood.
and i have emath retest tuesday, great.
next years o's !!!!!!!!!!!!
previously when seniors go through this year i thought it was gonna be such a breeze and all.
then when you really going to experience it , you feel like hell-stressed and going crazy.
what if you dont get what you wanted ?
not your destinied jc ?
whatever.

am not gonna let it daunt my spirits now!!!!!!!!!!
am quite satisfied with my life now, what i have and the people around me.
best friends and all , cheers !
that girl ah, forever busy one.
no time for me :(
HAHA
anyway.
IM WATCHING VIET VS THAI , KIND OF EXPECTED HOW BORED I AM NOW.
sigh.
i want to do alot of things before this year ends !
like go out with ****** and wenkai for our bowling!
get down to vivo for countdown(am still considering the worthwhile-ness of the 18 bucks)
but most prolly i wish for my fei de!
:D:D:D
hahaha okay im tired.

I THINK IM FATTER NOW.
-looking through london and vietnam-
K BYE.
CHEERS !

at 12:33 AM

Friday, December 26, 2008

It's been ages when a miracle happened.

empty promises.
empty promises.
empty promises.
empty promises.
empty promises.

how much do they weigh, i dont know but i hate this.
it came up to a naught.
nothing , nothing.
bye i have utterly no mood or anything else.

f this shit.
i hate you, you liar.

at 1:30 AM

Wednesday, December 24, 2008

CLICK TO ENLARGE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
OLD TRAFFORD 17 DEC 08

at 2:26 PM

Friday, December 5, 2008

this post is for you.

i told sy i wont post about it but i decided to cos i feel like dying anytime now.
why must it be her.
someone whom i feeeeeel so much for, yet everything comes to a naught.
i feeel terrible every day looking at you getting on with life so happily... I'M GLAD. seriously.
but yet it pains me to KCUFing go through all of these because i haven't gotten over you.
I HAVE NOT GOTTEN OVER YOU.
but what can i do ?! there is no point telling her about it and making her feel miserable and guilty and sorry because thats not i want ! it doesnt change anything.
everytime she tells me about her and ______ , i will just put on a brave front and pretend to be happy.
everytime she treats me very well i will feel very pleased and excited because i will tell myself ' she still likes you at least for 1%' and just make myself feel better.
everytime i tell myself i must wait for her i just feel glad that she is always within my reach and i know i can do my best even if i fail.
every moment i spend with her are quality time tgt because i will rmb them forever.
everytime she just smiles and burst out laughing or does every little silly thing i will be happy for her.
everytime she gets into problems my heart just goes out for her.
everytime she tells me ' i will be there for you' you know how lucky i thought i was because i know i had her no matter what im going through, good or bad.
everytime i know i cannot be there for her whenever she feels lousy or stuff or that i just dont know what to do whenever you tell me about him i get this lousy miserable feeling.
everytime i know i tried my best to do everything to get over her i just could not do it.
she does not know it, but i am just simply waiting and doing everything and anything to be there for her if she ever needs me to be there to just hear rubbish or scold and cry over little things and just hope she feels better.
i keep telling myself to be happy when she is , well i do but nonethelesss i just cannot do much to get over the uneasy feeling i had ever since ages ago when i first fell in love with her.
consequently, other rs i had failed because it is her that i gave up everything i had and i never once regretted doing so because i know its unfair to me and the other nice girls AND THAT I DO STILL HAVE YOU IN MY TOP PRIORITY.
but will i get my wish. i doubt so.

right now.
words like 'i miss you like some fuck' 'do you know i loved you dearly' but yet i could not tell her just kills me because you know she is right under your nose but you are helpless and restricted because you know she is the only one for you but you cannot do a shit about it.
yes i can tell you i still love you.
i'm right down here waiting for you.
to someone i will always be there for , whether rain or shine.
YES IT IS YOU.

at 11:43 PM

Wednesday, November 26, 2008

PICTURE OF THE DAY ! VIETNAM SAPA ! (:
aiyoh stupid fei de keep rushing me to post.
if not i will die everyday , partly cos i promised her to do so.

today was outing with the guys (:
they keep complaining that i have been out with girls too much and pangseh-ed them (sorry!)
haha it was quite fun with them man.
GAY GANG hahaha !
i just got home soon anyway.

oh sidetrack a lil, i have tons of pictures with me now
the chalet with the girls (: and vietnam !
but if you know me , im lazy to do so .
only some people i think i will show them HAHA
too bad if you arent one.
been busy entertaining _____* cos apparently some one is moodayyyyyyyyyyyy.
but i realised i suck i sucked :(
nvm next pigging trip i treat you k !

watching the channel u show now btw and nth much online for me to do , sigh.
this post is longer than i had expected , wow.
okay la going off alrd .
bye, i know you will be watching this.

i dont know why but you just mean alot , alot to me i guess. :(

at 10:18 PM

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

IM GONNA MISS SOMEONE SO BADLY. SO BADLY.
i know. surprised to see me writing after infinity years.
thanks -.-
actl i have no mood to do up this shit again , main reason why i wrote was because of _____ ?
haha i've been rotting through this holidays, and i feel especially sucky and sluggish now .
i dont even know why . everything seems non-interesting to me anymore.
sigh ~

i have been a slacker, doing nothing except sleeping and msg fats and close friends.
oh not excluding my vietnam trips(pics will be up soon once i get it)
i had fun , from the pics you all can tell alr !
funny gang from chs which i experienced.
thank you mrs oh , ms tan and mr yong for making this trip more enjoyable and not forgetting you guys (:
WE HAD TAUPOK HUMPING SESSION!
sick guys like us pretending to fuck someone hahaha they were damn funny omg.
then we were like trying to have orgies, then were like arguing over who to be the girls who gets humped . but failed cos we were too crazy and we just turned the whole bed upside down HAHAH.
oh well catholic high boys.

enough said.
bye bye fatso !
come back soon , and pls.
LOOK ME UP !!!! :D

thats all.
im going back to my stoic state and stare into space (:

at 11:28 PM